the spur of insecurity

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes
Make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful
But what does that mean to you
Look into the mirror who's inside there
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today . . .

For months now, I have been listening to Glee’s cover of Unpretty, which was originally popularized by TLC. Quite frankly, this song has a poignant effect on me and it clearly expresses what I currently feel. It will surely be a long post if I am going to elaborate it. But I can just sum it up as BIZARRE! – like I don’t even know how and why.

Even before I finished my degree, I thought I have finally come to terms with my self-esteem issues; that I were psychologically sound already, but I got myself completely wrong. I don’t know if it’s just me, but there are days when someone gets the best of me and makes me feel that I AM NEVER ENOUGH without them knowing it. Good thing, the Lord never fails me. 

“The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” — 1 Samuel 16:7